wow. everything i can think to write right now has a negative spin on it. :( not good.
i have some BIG decisions in my life right now, and because i am waiting on God to guide me and am not yet sure what that means, i won't go into any details. suffice it to say it would be a big change in almost every way, and despite the things i am fearing, i also am very excited about it. i hope i can find some clarity and definitive answers soon so i can start "shouting from the mountaintops" as it were.
in the mean time sitting here, slogging through the day to day is getting rougher. it's harder to sit still. it's harder to keep going. to be motivated, internally or externally. i just want to sit outside in the fresh air, read books, listen to music, eat lunch with friends, talk about possibilities.
God, give me strength to keep doing what you've asked me to do - even for a time.
i just feel so ... restless.
Showing posts with label confusion. Show all posts
Showing posts with label confusion. Show all posts
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
I thought it was fall...
Yesterday was the first day of fall.
It was also almost 90 degrees in chicagoland.
and yet, in my freezing office, i was wearing a wool sweater for most of the day.
WHAT?
today's high is 80ish, tomorrows, again, near 90.
This. Is. Not. Fall.
CoME oN FalL! I'm WaitINg, and NonE tOo pATienTLy!
It was also almost 90 degrees in chicagoland.
and yet, in my freezing office, i was wearing a wool sweater for most of the day.
WHAT?
today's high is 80ish, tomorrows, again, near 90.
This. Is. Not. Fall.
CoME oN FalL! I'm WaitINg, and NonE tOo pATienTLy!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
I believe I made a promise....
One that I have not yet fulfilled.
Here is the promise.
Here is part of the reason it hasn't been fulfilled.
And now, the new promise:
The fulfillment is coming.
Tomorrow night.
Here is the promise.
Here is part of the reason it hasn't been fulfilled.
And now, the new promise:
The fulfillment is coming.
Tomorrow night.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Wondering why - and it's not good.
------- we interrupt this broadcast to bring you some ranting--------
Why it always seems like money is wasted when the product isn't exactly what you'd expected, but saved money and will work great - help with limitations, help with little hands, help with budget. Why is it that you must order new, larger bags (which cost more to begin with) and then have to pay for rush processing and shipping?
Why does it always happen when it is the most stressful time already?
Why is it that no one can make a decision without going through someone else?
Why is it that there seems to be no trust, no appreciation, no team attitude, no lifting others up, only pushing them down - hard and fast?
Why?
I know: let's stress everyone out past their limit (x10) and see how long they last. Then when we need to replace 4 people, and are wondering why, maybe this will be the telling thing. Will this be remembered?
No. No, it won't.
Why it always seems like money is wasted when the product isn't exactly what you'd expected, but saved money and will work great - help with limitations, help with little hands, help with budget. Why is it that you must order new, larger bags (which cost more to begin with) and then have to pay for rush processing and shipping?
Why does it always happen when it is the most stressful time already?
Why is it that no one can make a decision without going through someone else?
Why is it that there seems to be no trust, no appreciation, no team attitude, no lifting others up, only pushing them down - hard and fast?
Why?
I know: let's stress everyone out past their limit (x10) and see how long they last. Then when we need to replace 4 people, and are wondering why, maybe this will be the telling thing. Will this be remembered?
No. No, it won't.
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